Post Surgical Orgasms - Too Much Information

[clovehitched]

I've had a few orgasms since surgery, but all of them have been the sort where you "just" manage to peak, and then fizzle. What I've missed out on was the kind of orgasm where you convulse and that rapid "whoosh" of intense feeling spreads rapidly outwards from the glans penis/clitoris (delete as applicable). The one where, if you have male anatomy or a well developed G-spot, there's an accompanying mess from ejaculation. The last one of those that I had was on January 2nd, 2007, 2 days before my surgery.

I'd resigned myself to never having another one as long as I live, which was a bit of a downer, but not the end of the world. I could still get a lot of benefit from the less explosive, "minor" orgasms that I was able to attain post surgery, and there's not the burning need for relief through orgasm that I'd frequently get pre-ostrogen, where I would typically masturbate daily in the shower not for fun, but just to drain built up tension, because I needed to. Having such compulsion and not being able to do anything about is not somewhere I'd like to find myself in life, not at all!

Anyway, yesterday things changed. My attention had been drawn to a rather explicit video online which involved a physically attractive dominant lady doing quite horrid things to her male submissive's abdomen. Watching it stirred something down below in a way that's been very elusive since surgery; I decided to put my hand down there and go with it.

About 30 seconds later, that feeling I'd resigned myself to experiencing only in memories returned, and I was momentarily grateful for the sound insulation in modern houses. I also found out that my prostate, despite an almost total lack of testosterone, is in good working order, and that I needed a change of underwear *blush*.

Perhaps something changed recently - I did feel a bunch of nerves come "online" a few days ago, and perhaps it was enough to push me over a threshold. I've also been taking microgenised progesterone recently, which might have something to do with it (it seems less harsh on my moods than Provera). Regardless, when Liz Hills, Mr Thomas' clinical assistant, told me it can take 18 months or more to regain enough sensation for orgasm she wasn't kidding. Having it back is ... nice, and I hope it won't be too hard to achieve again.

Perhaps I also owe Dr Curtis a little bit of credit too, for his suggestion that I use porn to try and stimulate my sex drive postop ("visual stimulation", or something like that was how he put it). At the time I thought that suggestion was a bit much, but it did the job of lighting the fires this time.